Dear Blue Creek Village

By Sarah White

This was inspired by a prompt: “Write an apology to a place.” Try it and see what comes to you!

Dear Blue Creek Village, I’m sorry I haven’t been back to see you. It has been almost twenty years. I loved so much about you—your people, your landscape, the effort it took to get to you, high in the mountains. I wished I could know the story behind everything I saw. And yet, I never got back to ask you.

Me, showing girls their portraits on my camera’s little screen

The little girl I interviewed for the story about “Life in a Mayan Village”? She is all grown up, probably a mother with children of her own. Her older sister, who was 19 when I visited in 2004, already had a number of children. That’s the custom among the Mayan villagers, we were told.

The people who ran the guest-house coop where we stayed—I apologize. I haven’t been back to bring more tourist dollars to your pockets. I will never be able to find out why some of your neighbors didn’t want to join the coop. Did they not want to put on traditional costumes for us? Did serving us meals in their homes embarrass them, asking us to sit on the plastic buckets that were chairs in their one-room homes, eating under their hammocks, hooked high out of the way?

Did they feel like zoo animals, having us pay to see them in their native habitat? But we provided jobs to the guides who came to take us to see the howler monkeys, or guide us on a rainforest medicine walk, or take us to swim in the caves. You gave us visitors a card like a menu in a sushi restaurant and we checked off what we wanted to do. We never knew who would appear when, to take us to do what, but it was always fascinating. And each experience we checked cost about $2, just like sushi. Have the villagers who joined the coop kept that business going?

The guest house where we stayed

Blue Creek Village, I’m sorry I made up so much of that article I was commissioned to write. You see, my tape recorder was stolen out of my bag on the way out of Belize. I didn’t have the source interviews. Then my editor told me the story should have been about teenagers, not a little girl. So I pretended as if I had interviewed her sister. That was the closest I’ve ever come to a breach of journalistic ethics. (Let’s admit it, I crossed the line.) That story appeared on a credit union website for kids. I hope no one in Blue Creek ever found it, after the Internet came to your village.

The Internet came with the electricity, after Hurricane Iris hit so hard in 2001. The international relief dollars flowed in and that’s what brought electricity. When I visited in 2004, you were still getting to know what electricity could be used for. You had streetlights now, that kept the roosters crowing all night. Your school and your little health clinic had electricity. But mostly, electricity brought power for boomboxes, so the men could listen to Mexican radio all day while they worked their milpas, and power for your little store so that it could sell ice-cold Cokes. No electricity reached the homes; your women and girls still did their chores by hand, cooking over gas cylinders and washing laundry on stones in the creek.

Blue Creek, I’m sorriest of all about the missionaries. They were probably there before the electricity, but on my visit, it seemed the greatest use in Blue Creek for electricity was to amplify their message. Their rock band powered up every night after dinner. The bass booming through the dark attracted the villagers like moths to a porch lamp.

Blue Creek, I am sorry I haven’t been back to see you, but unfortunately, I came home with five different skin ailments that required an emergency trip to a dermatologist. Sunburn, blisters, I’d expected. But not the poisonwood rash, nor the angry-looking bite from the night my hand strayed out from under the mosquito net as I slept. I can’t even remember now what the fifth thing was. I do remember the dermatologist’s words: “You are medically advised never to go south of the 20th parallel again.”

Dear Blue Creek Village, I won’t be back. But I’ll see you in my dreams.

© 2022 Sarah White

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My blog "True Stories Well Told" is a place for people who read and write about real life. I’ve been leading life writing groups since 2004. I teach, coach memoir writers 1:1, and help people publish and share their life stories.
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