What Lies Within, by Libby J. Atwater

At the recent Association of Personal Historians conference I bought a copy of the memoir written by my colleague Libby Atwater, titled What Lies Within.

What_Lies_WithinHaving heard that Libby was working on her memoir–and being aware of her “backstory” as an adoptee who had found her birth family–I eagerly opened the book, expecting a tale to unfold that would hold my interest because I knew its author.

If you share some common element of Libby’s experience–you were born, in other words–her tale will hold YOUR  interest. Truth to tell, I had also purchased a memoir at the conference by one of our keynote speakers, far more well-known than Libby, and even though I started his first (in the airport, homeward-bound), hers elbowed his off my lap and demanded I not put it down.

Libby’s life in Hillside, New Jersey, in the 1950s and 1960s started out as “normal” as normal gets. As her back-jacket copy says,

Fathers worked, mothers ran the household, and children were allowed to be kids. We walked to school, played outdoors afterwards, and led carefree lives, secure in the comfort of loving parents and safe neighborhoods.

All this ended abruptly when family secrets were revealed, and the comfortable life I knew rapidly dissolved. With its dissolution came many losses during my early teens. Yet I survived and triumphed with the help of remaining family members, good friends, and kind strangers.

Libby  handles with grace telling the story of her difficult childhood and coming of age, proving that “ordinary” people can and do have extraordinary stories. Libby’s journey from adopted infant to orphaned teenager to happy newlywed, as America transitioned from the conformist 1950s into the radicalism of the late 1960s, reflects our shared social history and illuminates its often cruel effect on many lives.

If you are thinking about writing your memoir, this book is worth reading because it will have you thinking about storytelling technique and the ethical challenges of telling your true story. Because family secrets were suddenly revealed, and people appeared and disappeared from Libby’s life, as a writer she needed to cope with  questions of who knew what when and when did that knowledge influence people and events? She overcomes a challenging chronology to make her story understandable.

In particular, I found it helpful to observe how Libby handled  the difficult question of what to include (since, as the saying goes, “just because it happened to you doesn’t make it interesting.”) She gives us enough of the ordinary moments to provide stark contrast when difficulties arise. Without passing judgement, she compassionately records the effect of the behavior of her difficult father and sister. By revealing her own journey through grief and hardship, she teaches lessons in resiliency without ever lapsing into “preaching.”

Atwater_Libby-240x300Libby Atwater has been a journalist, teacher, and personal historian. She has written for individuals, families, businesses, nonprofits, educational institutions, magazines, and community newspapers. Tales from her life have been published in several anthologies. What Lies Within is her first memoir. Its sequel, What Took You So Long, is in progress.

Next week–I interview Libby about the process of writing her book.

p.s. Speaking of adoption,  at the APH Conference I attended a workshop by Maureen Mccauley Evans (who blogs at lightofdaystories.com) titled “Adopted and Estranged Families: Rebuilding a Personal History.” In a recent post on her blog, she writes about an adoptee-led conference she had just attended. She writes about Katie Have Leo, a writer/performer/educator:

Telling adoption stories, according to Katie, is ‘…an intervention to the dominant narrative of adoption’ told through other voices in our society, such as adoptive parents and adoption agencies. We need more adoptee voices telling their stories through their art: ‘we want more intersections’ of truth, art, and personal stories, because that ‘brings strength.’

Thanks, Maureen, for putting into words what I’ve been thinking. Libby’s book What Lies Within is important because it brings truth and art together, to generate strength.

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To buy the Kindle version of What Lies Within on Amazon, click here.

To order the print edition, click here.

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My blog "True Stories Well Told" is a place for people who read and write about real life. I’ve been leading life writing groups since 2004. I teach, coach memoir writers 1:1, and help people publish and share their life stories.
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2 Responses to What Lies Within, by Libby J. Atwater

  1. Denis Ledoux says:

    Sarah, thanks for the introduction to Libby’s book. A story of hers has also been included in the third edition of my Turning Memories Into Memoirs— a dear story about how her grandmother was frisked at a security check point at an airport and the accompanying adult grandkids went wild with laughter. Grandma the terrorist!


  2. Pingback: Interview with Libby Atwater, author of “What Lies Within” | True Stories Well Told

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